The Voice

Sometimes there's a cloud Hanging over me No matter where I look Despair is all I see. I ask God to remove, The gloom in my way But, it remains no matter How hard I try to pray. The feeling is somber, Disheartening to say the least And I know it is coming From Satan that old beast. For he wants me to be, Discouraged and joyless He loves to make me feel Rejected and hopeless. Lord, sometimes there's a cloud Dampening my view But it simply dissipates The more I think of You.   Psalm 94:19 In the multitudes of my thoughts Within me They comforts delight my soul.

When all hope, Has gone out of you When the sea ahead Turns a ranging blue. Hold on to Jesus, Let Him be your light And the waves of depression He will help you fight. When all desire, Has gone out of you When the storm you are in Obscures your enternal view. Hold on to Jesus, Let Him be your rock And the winds of adversity He will begin to block. When all hope and desire, Has gone out of you You'll not be discouraged If Jesus you hold on to.

Disappointments come, Into everyone's life Some we can push aside Others cause inside strife. They have many shapes, But, with the same face For, hopelessness knows It's all about the chase. They can poke around, Or hit straight in the gut For depression only wants You wallowing in it's rut. They come in many forms But, with same attitude Making singing the blues Almost impossible to elude. Into everyone's life, Comes disappointment But, I have found God's word To be failures curing ointment.    PSALM 35:5 " O MY SOUL? AND WHY ART THOU DISQUIETED WITH ME? HOPE IN GOD: FOR I SHALL YET PRAISE HIM, WHO IS THE HEALTH OF MY CO

I'm reminiscing and imI missing, The childhood I never had. I'm triggering and I'm figuring, There were reasons to be sad. I'm supposing and I'm closing, In on all my childhood fears. I'm indicting and I'm inviting, The people behind my tears. I'm reflecting and I'm injecting, The power of God above. I'm unmasking and I'm asking, Why the child was void of love? I'm a hunting and I'm confronting, The abusers once again. I'm a hunting but I'm supporting, The courage of the child within. I'm remising and I'm dismissing, The notion that I was not good. I'm fearing but I'm a sharing, All aspects of childhood. I'm feeling but I'm dealing With all of my past issues. I'm dying and I'm a crying, So please pass me the tissues. I'm confiding and I'm not hiding, From the issues I must explore. I'm expressing and not suppressing, The child's feelings anymore...

Her smile was visible to all, Showing a dark secret From an insecapable memory Because of the lie she kept Telling herself. Showing a dark secret, The light was dimming Because of the lie she kept Telling herself. She tried to push the pain Aside. The light was dimming From an inescapable memory She tried to push the pain Aside. Her smile was visible to all.

Outside lives a girl with a smile that will brighten up the room. Yet inside hides a girl with a Frown full of despair. Outside a girl with a beautiful Laugh that's contagious, Yet inside hides a girl Screaming her lungs out in Unwanted anger. Outside lives a girl who is Fearless and tough, Yet inside hides a girl full of Pain, wanting to die. Outside lives a girl with a Perfect image, Yet inside hides a girl with regrets and mistakes. Outside lives a girl with goals and aspirations, Yet inside lives a girl lost in confusion. What you see on the outside is her Personal disguise. What hides underneath, you can't even begin to imagine.

Don't believe my words, They're lies that I fabricate to Project a perfect life and Convince you I'm okay. Don't trust the smile you see, It's a facade to conceal, Searing pain,acute shame, Sheer heartache. Don't get fooled by my laughter, It is merely an echo Of hollow insides, yearning For senses to return. Don't get convinced by my Clarity and order; Borne in attempt to Control the choas And pacify the storm brewing Inside. Don't be blinded by The perfection I exude, The courage I fake, The innocence I feign, The confidence I wear- For I am broken.

    I'm left silent, I'm left in pain, You are so violent And completely insane. The way you touched and hurt me so well left my body crushed, and you could tell. But you loved me hurt, broken and bruised. When you'd rip my shirt, you'd yell lose And I always did for you were stronger, and whenever I hid, you hurt me longer. I didn't deserve it, but now I have no choice I'll have to endure it, for I have no voice. So forget me, but remember, I'll never forget you.